The end of the road
I don’t think this would work
But sometimes you have to realize all potential you have
Although it would be the best choice
It is not me
It is something inside of me
Trying to break from the inside
And go back to the surface.
This is only a parable
Of unknown thing
That always stuck in my heart for a long time
*****
The story begins with a man who walks on the surface of the
unknown world.
The world is flat and the surface is covered by grass, which
is so thick so men just didn’t know whether they step on land, or holes
People need to find the right path, or they’ll fall into the
holes that lead them to the sewer where the demon lives.
Yeah he isn’t alone there, there are people.
A lot of people.
And all of them are walking randomly.
Some people walking to the north, some people walking to the
south, some walking to the North West and etc
They are walking on the same land. The only different is
some people already know the right path, and some other still searching for it.
And this man is one of the people in this unknown world
Doesn’t know where he is going what is the point of this,
just walking
Walking
Walking
And keep walking.
*****
One day He misses his step and falls into the hole, which
brings him to a sewer.
The sewer is so dark, that even blind men wouldn’t see
anything.
This is the first time he falls into the holes. He never
feels darkness like this before, He feels so frightened, he feels forgotten,
and he feels so lonely. So he just sits down do nothing.
But then suddenly, there was a small light that shine from
his body lighten the sewer
Now he can see a bit, he smiles and decided to stand up and
continue walking
With that light he could seeing around the sewer, and he
found a ladder. He then climbs the ladder, and found himself on the surface
again
And he continues his aimless journey.
But then not so long after that. He misses his step again
and falls to the sewer for the second time. But again with light that shine
from his body he could find way to the surface.
And he falls again for the third time, for the fourth time,
for the fifth time
He didn’t care about that. He never pays attention on his
path. He just walking randomly, bravely (or maybe stupidly) because he believe
he’ll be okay as long as he has the light
Then he walking again, and falling again
Walking, falling
Walking, falling
*****
Until one day he falls again.
But now it is different.
The ‘inner light’ is disappear.
There is only darkness, a tense darkness.
Now he feels so frightened. Like the first time he faces
this darkness.
He is sitting down
again. Rolling on the floor, but he isn’t laughing, he is terrifying (ROFT) as
a terrifying sound comes closer
It was the demon, and it already right behind him
And he thinks there are no hopes left…..
But no, he is a lucky guy. He is one of the luckiest men on
this world.
When he already gives up and let the demon takes his soul
Come several men that equipped with armor and sword
protected him. They extrude the demon and lead the man back to the surface
And after he reaches the surface, those knights vanish. He
doesn’t know where they are going. They just disappear like smokes.
He is really confuses, but then he continue walking again
*****
Actually when he is on the surface his ‘inner light’ will
recover slowly, but it never recovered well, because he always fall to the
sewer before it recover well enough to expand;
So it is starts again. His daily habitude. Walking randomly
and falling randomly
On the other day he falls, he has recovered some light so he
could find the ladder
On the other day he falls, the knights save him, extrude the
demon and lead him to the ladder
He thought it would be a permanent pattern, so he just
accepts it as a part of his life
And then the day comes
The day when he falls.
But he hasn’t recovered yet, and the knights aren’t there
He stuck
Stuck in the darkness
Stuck in the desperation
Just stuck
*****
And once again a voice from the demon really terrified him,
but now it is more terrifying. Because he knows that the demon is running
And a-run-or-murdered race between them, but he is simply
too weak so the demon could just grab him easily. Without any effort. The demon
then preparing for an absorbing soul ritual.
When he feels it is the real over. And he’ll just died by
the demon
There comes a clear light from the surface
A clear light that come from someone who just passing by.
And makes the ugly creature that chase him suddenly gone.
The light was so bright, so big, and so lively. He is
enchanted with its beautifulness.
He is curious.
He never saw someone has a light that bright before, the light that even can shine through the sewer
He never saw someone has a light that bright before, the light that even can shine through the sewer
Then he standing and
wondering how someone can have a clear bright light like that
The light is moving! He follows the light from the sewer
unconsciously.
And suddenly he
thought that maybe there is a hope for him, he could go back to the surface!
He knows that he can’t just rely on his luckiness
He knows that he has something inside of him
He knows that he could make his own light, making his own
knights
But he needs help, he is a lost boy.
But unfortunately no one knows how to help him.
So he keeps following that light sneakily, hoping he’ll find
some clue.
Because it is how he learned, by seeing people
Because it is how he learned, by seeing people
And now he tries to learn how to make his ‘inner light’
shines just like that mysterious guy.
After several days, he finally could make his own knights
But it turns out that he cannot use his own knights to help
himself. He only could use his knights to help other. Yea, help other people to fight the demon and
find the ladder.
*****
And he realizes.
That in the past, there was
someone who always sends him the knights to help him when he was in trouble
And the reason why the knight stop
coming is maybe because that (or maybe those) persons(s) are gone from his
life.
He smiled a bit and continues
walking
So this is his life
He uses his knights to help
people, while he learn to lit up his own light by himself
He could make his own wick! (Well
start boy)
I repeat
HE COULD MAKE HIS OWN WICK (SUCH
AN ACHIEVEMENT)
ehm
And by the time passes he could make his own plate
And then the candle, the matches, and the burning oil
And finally he could make his own hand-made candle light
just by seeing that mysterious light
That light really motivated him, although they never have a
contact, and he just doesn’t know why, it just motivated him to make this
candle unintentionally.
Although it is not his ‘inner light’, he is excited just
like a children that got their first picture of sultan Mahmud badaruddin II
(equal to 10 pictures of pattimura)
How can he suppose to be not excited?
He can make his own light!
Although it a small candle and temporary light, its light just as bright as his ‘inner light’
He can make his own light!
Although it a small candle and temporary light, its light just as bright as his ‘inner light’
He really wants to thank the mysterious light, but it is so
fast that he cannot catch her up
So he promised,
on the day he can catch her up, he would say thank you, no matter what its response is.
on the day he can catch her up, he would say thank you, no matter what its response is.
He then searching for the ladder and climb it.
And when he already in the surface, he starts running.
Running
And when he already in the surface, he starts running.
Running
He runs carefully, he doesn’t want to fall while chasing.
Because he know there will be no time left, he run faster,
while hopes that light is slowing down.
And it turns out to be his worst wish ever…..
That mysterious light is fall to the sewer…..
He was so shocked. He never imagines something like this
would ever happen.
He believes that that mysterious light won’t fall no matter
what
And he feels so guilty to hoped it’ll slowing down
He then managed to go the place where that mysterious light
falls, just want to make sure whether that mysterious light is alright, because
it fell really hard
That mysterious light fallen makes the man really, really
shocked
He runs faster, and even faster when he thinks about it
That makes this man fall too, falling hard too
As he runs faster, he falls harder too
*bam* he smacked really hard
“Are you alright?”
As he tries to pick himself up he asks the mysterious guy
that falling too in front of him whether that mysterious light okay or not
Now he has recovered some light so he didn’t need to use his
own-hand-made-pretty-awful-but-inspiring candle.
He is walking slowly
as he approaches that mysterious light
That mysterious light is now already stand up and starts
walking.
The man knows that it
is searching for the ladder to go up
He increase his speed because he doesn’t want it to left
And he gets closer and closer and closer.
*****
As he gets closer he realizes something
The mysterious guy is a girl
And her light is really beautiful even more beautiful than
what he saw
But her light now is not as bright as he saw; she must be
really shock to fall that hard
He approaches her slooowlyyy
But he is too enchanted with its beauty and forgetting his
real purpose to thank her
He suddenly feels ashamed to talk to her, because his light
doesn’t even brighter than hers
So he just stands watching her looking for the ladder.
He just fails to keep his word
To thank her when he gets the chance
He only sees her from distant. He feels reticent.
So he just sees her making progress, and learns how she
lives her life.
It seems she doesn’t have any knights, because she looks pretty
quiet, but he doesn’t really know. He just guessing.
The only thing he knows is that he has to make a step before
it’s too late, before she finds the ladder and gone
He tries to call her, tries to speak to her
But his voice never come out, or maybe never heard. You know
different frequency maybe…
..
Or maybe she just an ignorant kind of girl so he actually
hear but didn’t want to response
Or the worst thing
The man is in the different world as the girl, the different
reality, and has different path
*****
So he thinks, at least I should thank her. Thank her for a
little thing, that matter for the rest of the man life although she thinks that it is nothing
But his voice is still ignored, so he decided to tap her shoulder.
So he comes closer
Closer
clooserr
But when he already right behind her and about to tap her, a
sudden lightning bolt light comes out of the woman’s body and dazzled the man
He fall down as he really surprised and dazzled with that
And while he try to get up and approach her again
A group of equestrian
knights already stand between them
He was shocked with their presence. And even more, when he
tries to get up, an equestrian run and hit him with his horse really hard
The man fall hardly
How could the knight attack him? Doesn’t these knights are
exist to kill the demon only?
And while he is really confused with the situation, he sees
a reflection of himself on the puddle of the water.
And he can’t believe
Over something that he never ever thought for his life.
He turns into a demon.
He screams, he cries, he traduces
The sewer has absorbs his soul and his body, and turns him
into a dreadful demon.
The equestrian start to attack him
And the battle begin, as the man hit them one by one angrily
It seems like his disappointment give him strength and big
body
He hit those equestrian hard, but the equestrian keep come
up and attack them repeatedly
But in the end with a special shield, the last equestrian
could block the man’s attack and lock his hands from attacking
The man’s hands is locked, even he tries his best to put
them off the handcuff is just too strong for him
Now it is a deadlock
That last knight couldn’t use his hands as his hands hold
the shield
And the man couldn’t move his hands, as his hands trapped.
It would be a deadlock till the end of time
Until a knife thrown
It goes through the man’s heart
Straight to the man’s heart
It was hers
The girl’s knife
She threw it…..
Such a shock moment, for a foolish like him. He deserves it…..
As the knife pierce right to his heart, he lost his balance,
and fell down
He is on his knee, and his eyes shows a great pain
Not a pain from his wound that hurt him much, but rather
because of his broken heart…..
*****
The man already down, but he still alive and still could seeing
her
She already finds the ladder
When she about to climb it…. she turns his head and looks
into the man’s eyes
And an eye contact, for the first time, and maybe the last
time.
The girl shakes her head, with sadness in her face
And the man close his eyes, as the woman makes a step
He knows that she is a kind girl with a bright light.
But now her light is not as bright as he saw for the first
time, thats maybe because she just took the ladder that she didn't really want to take to go to surface, or maybe just because she still can't find the real passion on this thing
He doesn't know
But he learns something
She is chasing for a brighter light, that’s the reason why
her light is so bright
Because chasing someone, can lit up your inner light, and
bring you to the surface
Just like what happened to him…..
And he admits it, that the reason why he chased her over is
not only just to say thank you to her, but more because he has a great feeling
one her
*****
And a promises that he fails to keep, bear a new dream and a
wish
He makes a wish, just a simple wish
If i ever meet you again
I’ll just thank you
Thank you
Thank you
And I’ll show you
The wick that I made :)
“When it gets hard, I just have to remember my goal” – ndak tau
ah hihi
cerpen pertama gw disini nih, ditulis pas gw mabok murni jam 3 an waktu itu
tapi yah sebebarnya gw selalu mabok jadi yaa ahahaha
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